Plz help me out....?

i really hate my life i'm emo but don't dress like it, it seems like everyone hates me even my own family hates me i have a gf who i don't think i will date anymore cuz she's a sorry person i cut myself i won't take meds or talk to a doctor last time i talked 2 a doctor it didn't help at all i went 2 a mental hospital and it made me feel worse i just want 2 die i won't call up any hotlines cuz they just try 2 put me in a mental hospital i am all alone now i have nobody 2 talk 2 and plz dont' say u can talk 2 me cuz i can't e-mail anymore so that won't help i have no friends at all i can't even love myself anymore and i don't trust anybody cuz everyone i though i trusted just ended up lying 2 me and now i have nobody in my life i just want 2 die what should i do