Would this be considered verbal abuse to a child if my mom does this?

This is horrendous! It's emotional abuse, which can leave worse scars than physical abuse. She has so much control of your life, that the only control you have left is of your physical body. At age 14, we have no freedom at all if our parent is a tyrant. One thing that I can tell you with certainty, is that your mother is mentally ill herself. No sane mother wants to destroy her child. Child abuse arises out of many things. A hatred of the other parent, she may have been treated this way herself, low self-esteem, regretting how her life turned out...all sorts of things. You can't fix her! I've told you this so you'll know that what's wrong with her, is NOT because of you. Once you realize how mentally sick she is, you won't take her abuse so personally. I grew up with a mentally ill grandmother. It was frightening and awful at times. I was an adult before I discovered her own father got drunk one night and d her. In those days people blamed the victim. No wonder she was crazy! You don't mention any other family. Is there anyone who can really help? If not, you have to try social agencies. You don't have to go to church before you ask a minister, priest, rabbi, or whatever for help. Your school can help. Even a teacher you like may give you some guidance. It won't be easy! But, right now you are killing yourself, and what she's doing to you can make you so mentally ill, that your life in the future is in real danger. You must know that there are child abuse agencies that would help you. Foster homes can sound frightening, but living with her is killing you. You need counselling right now to cope with the damage she has done. Find help now! I am truly sorry this happening to you. Please know that you have lots of company. We lived through it and went on with our lives. Psychologists helped. Don't end your life before it even really starts. GET SOME HELP PLEASE!